Once you have been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again, you have a fear that every person is going to break your heart.

Haven't written in here for awhile.. I have an awful memory.Let's see if I can remember the days..
Thursday; Just a normal school day I think. Got ready for ACT and all that..I'm not looking forward to that. ugh. eff that. I'm pretty sure that I went over to Logan's.. mhmm. damn, my memory sucks.
Friday; No school. I don't think that I did anything..slept? Zachary and Patrick called me..I miss himmm. :-/ whatever. life goes on. While I was on the phone with them, My power went out!! it was like 11:30. So scary..considering I don't like being in the dark alone. I used my netbook as a light. Huge storm.
Saturday; I woke up..The power was still out..I wasn't cold though. Looked outside...It was awful. We had to shovel. The snow was so heavy that we couldn't plow it. It was hard..My phone died a couple of times..No water, No heat..it sucked. Our road was terrible. Boring day..The power came back on after like 13 hours.
Sunday(Yesterday); Hung out with thee boyfriend<3 I love him. Went shopping. woop woop. He bought me new yoga pants!! yaya. I met his..uncle? mhm. it was a good day/night. Monday(Today); A lot of people didn't have school. It was a lonely day for me..sigh. the usual. Did laundry, cleaned..Patrick and Zachary called on blocked.. talked to Patrick again..Chris called me..and then other Khrys called me..At least some people love me and miss me....Owens called and asked why I wasn't at school today..hahahaa. only 8 people showed up. And then they left. Dumb school. I'm thinking positive so I don't go all depressed. ha. no joke.
well, thee fam is home.
xoxo.

I'm no beauty queen, I'm just beautiful me

Oh joy.
Tuesday; School was kind fine. Wasn't too bad. Sarah and I get called "Hickbilly's" ?? Because we listen to country. oh well. I woke up late again so I didn't have time to do anything.Took a shower and left. Logan picked me up from school<3 He fed me some delicious foooodd. Some chicken stuff. I had a wonderful time with him, like usual. I really don't know what I'd do without him. sigh. Wednesday(Today); Snow Day. No one loves me so I didn't do anything today..Slept.woo hoo. I was pretty lonesome today, still am. There is something good in everyday, the good in today's day was ordering new glasses. see? I'm trying to think positive so I don't go all depressed. yay. other then that, I've been looking for places to volunteer at. It makes me smile when I help people. Maybe a nursing home, or something like that. I'll do some research. Today is a Leap Day.
that's all
xxx

I'd shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazing at stars

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ...Well. Break is over unfortunately. All and all, it was an alright break. It had its ups and downs. I miss Katie. She was the bestest best friend ever. :-[
Friday; I got to dad's..Fell asleep. Woke up at some time and then they were getting ready to go out with Martha and Ray. So I babysat. Friday sucked. Pretty bad. Probably the worst day of break. I got into a fight with Logan. I got sick..Pretty terrible but at least it's over now. Life goes on. I've been trying to keep my jealousy and all that stuff down. && my temper. Ha.
Saturday; I got picked up around 10. I don't really recall Saturday. Oh, I sat at home boredaf. I really have no one to talk to. I'm starting to realize that. I don't have anyone to vent to. No one wants to listen to my bull-ishhh. hmph. Guess I"ll just keep it all to myself. Cuz' that's a healthy thing to do. ha. I'm down to 92 pounds. woop woop. Still not happy with it..I still look 98. wtf. okay. done talking, on to Sunday.
Sunday; Hm. Logan picked me up. We went to his housie. Met like 7 trillion people. It was pretty nerve racking for me. I don't fit in at all. Ugh. I just don't know. I had a great time though. I've made this boy my everything, Hope I won't have to regret it. I love his mommy. ^_^ she's just a darlin'!!! Logan came over for a lil' bit..until like 9 err something like that. PArents really like him, which is a great thing.
Monday(Today); Back to school. It wasn't as bad as I expected. I think that I have diabetes though. No joke. Like, a couple times a month, I'll wake up in the morning and the tips of some of my fingers will be numb. So I did my research, & I think that I do. Gots to go to the doc. EW. I woke up late today. I didn't even stay up until 11!! I woke up at like 7:45. Sarah was being sassy. Whatever. I need to start bring advil to school. Cramps were badAF today. That school is so damn cold. The bathroom is pink now. I love pink, don't get me wrong, but it is an ugly ass pink. Some 7th grader is at the school all week..his name is Alec. He's tall. Children are so tall these days. and he's good at math? weird. Sarah and I are voting for Willie Nelson..okay. that's all I have to say. I have a headache.
byee.
ohh,
p.s.
Pretty Little Heart is the best song ever. <3 <3 <3
I need to get it as a ringtone.

"It's the fear in my eyes that keeps me walking forward"

Ohhh dear. Life is amazing. I have never ever been this happy.
hmm...I am getting over my fears.
slowly, but I am.
Monday; Well since I didn't finish Monday, Logan came over. & then he convinced me to go with him to pick up Derek at Kingsley. So I met him, and then we ended up going to his house..So I also met his mommmyy. I was wearing yoga pants and a tank top. No make up. I looked like ajfhiahf. She's sweet. We went to Menards, Taco Bell, and then back to his house. Got home, Sarah came over!! yay. I missed her.
Tuesday; Sarah was over all day..She left later in the afternoon. WE watched movies all day. After she left, I got a little pretty, and Logan came and picked me up. We went to his housieee. I'm getting used to everything slowly. It was a really good night. I love him. He came over for a bit. Well he didnt leave for awhile. I got in a little trouble. It's all good now.
Wednesday; it was a lazy day. I slept on and off all day. My sleep schedule is all effed up. I didn't see Logan. :-[
Thursday(Today); I didn't get much sleep last night. So I woke up at like 7:30 and started getting ready. Left with my grandma a little after 9. Picked up Logan's grandma. Met her. I think that she likes me!! I got dropped off at Dad's. Hung out with Chelsea. WEnt to Olive Garden. yummmm. Best.Chicken.Cesear. Salads. Ever. went to target.Art Van.ha.Logan picked me up from dad's at like 3 something. Spent a couple hours with him<3 he is the best. & I'm marrying him. no joke. Home now. Bored AF.
oooo i got his class ring<3 hehe. he gave it to me..<3 damn. he drives me crazyyy.
well nothing else.
xxoo

Te amé desde el primer momento en que te vi.

Friday didn't go as planned...Sarah didn't come over.
Saturday; Raven came over.Zac came over. Diego had a band concert at Central Grade School. That place freaks me out. Uhhh, Logan came over^_^ hehe. Ohh how I adore him.
Sunday; During the day, it sucked. Everyone went swimming. Logan and I hung out. I had a good timeeee. I always do when I'm with him though. Sarah was supposed to come over at 8, I tried to call, no answer. So I just stayed with Logan. mmmmmm...ohhhh my grandma and his grandma are like besties...weird. What a small world. The night made up ferr the suckish day.
Today(Monday); TCAPS has school. So it's just my grandma and I home. I didn't get much sleep last night and I have a headache. Hm..oh well. I'm trying to get Sarah to come over here later but she's probably busy with Freckles. Whatever.
welppp, that's about it.
xoxo.

"I'll Turn Your Crank"

Ohhh heyy there. I Have no idea anymore. Ha, nothing feels real anymore..I'm too happy. It's quite odd..I'm not really used to it.hehe.
OKay, let's see..
Thursday(Yesterday); it was a rather eventful day. People irritate me. But I stayed calm. I've been so mean lately. Ha. Oops. Rutledge's kid(Alec), was being all weird..He offered me a ride home and then asked me to go to a movie..umm...HELL NO. And then he calls me "Dirty Birdie" now..He took my phone and read texts that weren't even sexual. Pshh. Loser. Whatever. But, I got to see Logan. Went to Petsmart. woop woop. ;-p ha. He's great. I love him.
Today; It's Friday. Thank goodness. Kind of. Uhh, so I'm pretty sure people having being trying to press my buttons...So. I got to school and Sarah and I went to the bowling tournament to Lucky Jacks to take pictures for yearbook..right. We were only supposed to be gone for an hour. It ended up being over 2 hours. But before we left, Stivani was like "hey. you better be in my class.I'm serious." and then he gave us a mini lecture about how we didn't tell any of our teachers that we were leaving..HE KNEW THAT WE WERE!!!! HE LET US GO TALK TO BRONZE STATUE. ughh whatever. Now he is treating me like garbage. What the hell ever, he needs to get over himself. Just like Corey and Patrick. Ohhh Patrick. Screw You. wow. Sarah is supposed to be coming over tonight. Ohh, one more thing. Owens took me outta class today, and started lecturing me, about being in an abusive relationship with a guy and all of this...WTF.
that's all.
possibly a lonely night?
probably.
Sarah is with Freckles..and she hasn't texted me back. hm.
you can't really rely on anyone or anything in this world.
ta ta ferr now.
xoxo

Life.Is.Peachy.

Ohhh Dear. It has been awhile since I have been on here. I've been pretty darn busy.
Well.
Wednesday I made a fancy cake!! hehe yaya.
Last Thursday was pretty goood. Stayed after school for game night..After that, Went to a hotel for Michael's birthday. It twas Sarah,Michael,Julian,Tony, and Me. And Later that night, Tim, and Dylan showed up. Haha. It was pretty good. Sarah Spent the night.
Friday Eeyore(Sarah) and I woke up at like 7 so we could go back to thee hotel. I left early...Tony was being a jerk. Whatever.
Saturday..I babysat Chase. woop woop. Played with the kinect cuz I'm a cool cat like that..
Sunday..Sucked. I got picked up early..like 5:30am? Something like that because I was feeling nauseous and just terrible. I didnt get any sleep. My back was in pain too which wasnt great.
Monday..Didnt go to school. I felt a little better though. I cleaned for 4 hours. haha. It was entertaining.
Tuesday(Yesterday)...Valentines Day...hehe. ohhh it was a great day. well not until after school. Logan picked me up!! I'm getting over my fears. <3 I love him so much. He met the family.. they all like him. yay!!! ^.^ I had an amazing time with him. Wednesday(Today)...oh it was a boring day...ha. Logan came over..I was so happy to see him. <3 <3 <3 <3 only bad part about the day was Patrick..ugh. I really messed up that friendship. But as long as he's happy now. I'm happy. <3 kk. off to bed. xoxo